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Bridgette
01 May 2013 @ 06:35 pm
It's been absolutely forever since I've posted anything, but I'm still alive!
Work has taken over my entire life -_- but I am up for promotion again so that's peachy.

I was thinking about making a "point" blog. Like you know, Omona is all about K-pop news, some people only blog about video games, ect.

But then I thought, I love too many things to stick to just one thing...and I'm not the most confident in what knowledge I have on things. Even if I am knowledgeable I'm full of self-doubt.

So until then I'll continue to serenade you with my rambling of day to day occurences, "fan-girling" and other stuff that's random, like me.

<3<3
 
 
Bridgette
21 May 2012 @ 10:18 pm

I was going to sleep but right this moment on YouTube mbc is streaming Google's live Kpop concert and my heart is racing like I'm there :) love moments like these!

Anyone else watching right now??

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Bridgette
21 May 2012 @ 09:35 am
It's a new day and I'm a little less than happy today.

But it's all good. Going to the gym and then I'm gonna watch more EXO and B.A.P. vids. I think I found new crushes :)

I love how K-Pop makes my day. I guess I will also finish watching some more episodes of Running Man. And get some more music today.

I don't know...I don't wanna complain too much today. *sigh* so I won't. But I think I'll fangirl spaz later.

Anyone go to SMTOWN? How was it? I was supposed to go and I was a little hurt that I didn't...but it's ok. It was all the way on the other side of the country anyway.
 
 
Current Location: My Room
In My Heart: blankblank
In My Ears: Microphone- Ayumi Hamasaki
 
 
Bridgette
19 May 2012 @ 08:44 pm
I'm off for the next 4 days and I think I've neglected my video making for too long. Maybe I'll stop feeling sick and sing a little song :)

Joined soundcloud. Don't know that I'll remember I did though. Haha.


Thought of the day: You can be whoever you want to be online. Anyone. No one knows you. You can be free to say what's really on your mind, and be yourself even if you're scared to be in real life. So porque` am I so scared to do that? I think I'd have way way more friends online if I just was myself. I find myself consistently stopping myself from commenting on a story or post I really enjoyed or have so much to say about. Too much like the real me. Quiet. The "speak when spoken to" type.

Sucks. I'm 23. I should be outgoing, having the time of my life right about now, ne?

I'm gonna work on that the rest of the night. My sister inspires me to try. She's amazing, but she's so quiet in person.
:) Wish me lucks!


(maybe I should go to the store first, I'm so hungry)
 
 
Current Location: My Room
In My Heart: thoughtfulthoughtful
In My Ears: Twinkle- TaeTiSeo
 
 
Bridgette
19 May 2012 @ 10:46 am

여러분 안녕하세요. I think if I start writing in here everyday I'll feel a bit better and then I'll feel like I have someone to talk to about my random life and my love/obsession with K-pop. I've become so detached from the world it's crazy. I'm not the person I used to be on so many levels and I keep wondering how I let my life end up this way. How did this end up like this?

One may argue "you're only 23, you have your whole life ahead of you! You still have time to get it together!" unfortunately I don't feel that way although I know it's true. After all these years I've finally bought a car and I wish I hadn't. I am in debt with my bank account and I can't even begin to think about my other bills because this car has me so ruined right now.

But in light, I have at least figured something out about myself today. This time of year, the prom/graduation time of year, has consistently made me depressed. It actually is like clockwork and until today I never even realized it. About 5 years ago, I was a senior in high school. This day 5 years ago I was sitting in a hotel room crying wondering how this could have happened. Maybe I should break it down.

On May 11th, 2007, I had senior prom. It was a drama filled night to be sure, but it was still a night I would never forget. On the 14th, CJ and I started dating. And on the 17th, my room caught on fire, incinerating any memories of prom, senior year, my graduation stuff, my clothes, my memories from new York, and essentially my life. The fire was put out before it reached the rest of the house but my room was done for. There was nothing salvageable. No pictures, journals, diaries, nothing. It honestly to this day is something I never actually processed. But it hurt too bad then and at this point I feel like I'd be selfish to let it "hurt" me all these years later. So I pretend I'm over it.

The following weeks were filled with trying to spen what little we had on all new clothes, essentials and necessities and trying to get to and from school all the way from a filthy insurance-paid-for hotel in another town. Graduation came and went, no one had pictures of that, and I didn't really enjoy it because I was sick that day and I didn't know anyone I graduated with. (We had just moved to Jersey my junior year).

I went on to college but due to increased financial difficulty, I only went a year. I couldnt afford to pay for the next years tuition therefore locking me out of the class selection process and sealing the deal on what brought me to this moment. I never went back to school. I don't know if I'll ever be able to. I have so many bills that I can't see me ever having the money or time to go back.

Last may I was supposed to graduate from college. I didn't. But Facebook pictures and statuses always bring me down. The boyfriend doesn't understand. He graduated. He went on to go back to school. He also lives In a different world. I was raised in a different environment. I was supposed to finish school and make something of myself. I didn't plan on living in Salem county for the rest of my life.

This is probably the longest post ever lol. But im glad i can say this and get it out an i feel a little bit better. And I will make the effort to write more. I'm a bit sad this time of year and I've been crying a lot...but I have too many random happy things to talk about that no one else understands. Lol.

anyone going to the SMTOWN concert this weekend?

~bridge~

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Bridgette
16 October 2011 @ 07:58 pm
Hey guys...so I just got the IOs5 upgrade for my itouch, so i figured now is a good a time as any to fix my music library. It wouldn't be so hard if i can concentrate, but how can you possibly think straight when

IN 7 DAYS I WILL SEE SNSD, F(X), SUJU ANDDDDD SHINEE LIVE IN CONCERT!?!?!?!?!?

Ah yes, the best thing to happen in the month of October (no offense to my lovely sister lol).

I'm finally getting excited again.

Ever watch a live performance or even a video and tear up? Ah, Sixth Sense is doing that to me now. LOVE BEG's voices.

Anyway, I shall find more to ramble about later. I'm on a mission to finish reading old posts I've missed on my friends page andddd try to add more friends to my 2. Lol.

Byeee.

Oh and date tonight with the bf, how lovely...
 
 
Current Location: My comfy bed :)
In My Heart: busybusy
In My Ears: Oh! - SNSD
 
 
Bridgette
02 July 2011 @ 02:17 am
Soooo yesterday, (Thursday night to be exact) I had the pleasure of stabbing myself in the eye with a plug. Yes, plug-in-socket, just not the one i needed it in. So at the present moment, I'm relaxed off of prescription drugs and my eye looks like a large cherry.

The pain has subsided to a slight discomfort, which I'm thankful for, and now I can kinda see; whereas earlier I couldn't open my eyes without feeling like they were ripping open. (sorry, graphic right?)

Anyway, I mentally have decided to post here more. Although I feel like I really aren't venting if no one's reading it. Lol. I mean, I only post random stuff anyway...but that's pretty much how I feel all the time, random. I love me, haha.

Listening to 2NE1, "Lonely". Thinking I should have definitely tried the cover contest. But oh well.

Speaking of which, I'm thinking of a summer project to start seriously recording me singing and posting it to youtube. Even if it's not "popular", at least I'll have finally done it.

Thats all for now. Typing wearing sunglasses at 2am with one good eye is a strain. :)
 
 
Current Location: home in bed
In My Heart: okayokay
In My Ears: 2NE1- Lonely
 
 
Bridgette
10 June 2011 @ 01:37 am
What is going on with Daesung-oppa? This is what I wonder at 1:30 in the morning. -_-

I can't sleep...but at least I'm actually tired this time...unlike last night, which was a disaster as far as sleep is concerned.

So today I'm going to Red Lobster...yummm, lobster bisque here I come :)

Curtis and I were talking about wedding stuff, I said the playlist will be a disaster, considering I'm the only person I know in a 200 mile radius that listens to K or J pop at all... *sigh* he said "so what it's gonna be your wedding" and I said "i'd rather not bother..."

It's so hard being the only one...

Anywaysss...I'm gonna try going to sleep now.

Happy Friday!

Annyeong~

*SO is it random that In my head I say to myself "just answer the writer's blocks, no one cares what you're rambling about in your head..." lol...
 
 
In My Heart: hothot
In My Ears: Chocolate Love - f(x)
 
 
Bridgette
09 June 2011 @ 03:39 am
 Yeah, it's definitely 3 am...and I'm bored....

Someone help!?!? 

I would love to play "Persona 4" right now, but I haven't ordered it online yet.

Hopefully they pay me for my vacation time like they're supposed to, otherwise this'll be the longest, broke-est week ever.

sooo..what are you doing?

=)
 
 
Current Location: My bed
In My Heart: boredbored
In My Ears: traveling- Utada Hikaru
 
 
Bridgette
30 May 2011 @ 03:28 pm
i had a whole post but this computer just got dumb and erased everything.

Yeah I'm not even in the mood anymore.

Back to listening to Namie Amuro and watching Jerry with my sisters.

Laterz..

Annyeong~
 
 
In My Heart: aggravatedaggravated
In My Ears: Make It Happen- Namie Amuro f. After School